feminine.

so, i went through this phase. it was at its peak about a year ago. dark hair and refusing to wear makeup. i was trying to prove a point. i was trying to prove to the world that i was tough, that i didn't need my feminine side. the skirts, dresses, makeup, i was trying to show the world that i didn't need any of it. i was trying to prove to myself that i didn't need any of it. i went through this phase, where being a girl was weak, so i didn't everything in my power to be the opposite of a girl. i didn't care what i looked like, i just cared about whether or not i came across as tough. i was trying to show everyone who doubted me, that i could be a firefighter. i was trying to show myself.
but what i have found, or more what i have realized, is that i don't have to lose my femininity to be a firefighter. i don't have to change myself to be a firefighter, i can let it become a part of who i already am. a year ago, i had lost myself. i didn't know who i was. but i feel that that is changing, slowly. i feel like i am finding myself again. i feel like i am learning who i am, or who i am suppose to be, and that is a good feeling. and i am learning that who i am suppose, can include showing my girly side.
and my dear friend devon salisbury took senior pictures for me this past sunday. thank you devon! so enjoy :) have a great thursday everyone.

















































16 days.