soothing the soul.

i recently had a conversation with a friend about peace, and having peace on this earth. i told him how i have been longing for peace; his response:

"i doubt we ever will have that peace. we weren't built for this place. at least not our souls...i don't think God wants us to be completely comfortable here."
i am still wrestling with this idea. even though i know it is so true, it doesn't change the fact that my soul is yearning for more. maybe that is my soul longing for more of Christ? and i still haven't come to that realization yet.
i do want to share a few moments when my soul was at such a peace this weekend. i went with grace to the sarah bareilles concert in hollywood [first concert ever! it was amazing!] on friday...and let me just say this, sarah b. is one of those artists that speaks to my heart. a good majority of her songs brings me to tears. anyway, i waited anxiously the entire concert for her to sing my all time favorite song, "gravity." and then, at the very end, she sang it a capella. let me tell you, it was absolutely beautiful. there were tears. happy tears. it was amazing. here is the video for all of you who didn't get to see sarah b. in action...



and, on a side note, i am currently somewhat obsessed for the artist that opened for sarah, joshua radin. he is another phenomenal artist. he is one of those artists that you listen to when you are studying, sitting in a coffee shop, or you just need a good cry. i am currently in love with his song, "brand new day." here is him singing it at the concert. i hope it brightens your day, and helps you find the peace you are searching for.

rut.

thoughts...

i'll be honest, i had a picture in my head of what my adult life would look like. i had a picture in my head of what life post-graduation was going to look like. what life would be like without homework, papers, and sleepless nights. i had a picture in my head that my life would simply fall into place. i had the feeling that i would be filled with so much joy, peace, and contentment in the months following graduation. i still have a picture in my head of what i want my life to look like; but i just can't seem to get there.

i don't know what it is. my soul longs for contentment. my soul longs to be excited to wake up in the morning and face a new day. my soul longs to pour my love into another.

i am in a rut. i have been in a rut for a while. and i hate that i am. i know that the peace i am searching for only comes from Christ, and i don't know why i am having such a hard time facing that fact.

even though change has been the theme to this year, it is still something my heart longs. what is it about the "grass is greener on the other side" mentality? i don't want to live my life with that attitude, and i can feel myself living in that mindset everyday.

i said it in a post at the end of last year, that i want my life to begin, and i feel that i am in the same place. i guess i simply don't know what to do to make a change.

this rut, i want it to be rid of it. oh so badly.

so please pray for me friends. please pray that i can find peace in my life. please pray that i can be thankful for the many blessings Christ has showered me with. please pray that i learn how be content.

and on a side note, take a couple minutes to listen to this beautiful rendition of (i can't help) fall in love with you by ingrid michaelson. it is absolutely beautiful.