c h a n g e.

i realize that i probably sound like a broken record, and i really do apologize, bear with me, thanks. 1 month. wow. 1 month. this 6 year journey, and i am down to my final month before i walk across that stage and get my diploma. when did it happen. even though it has dragged on forever, at the same time, the years have quickly flown by. i honestly don't think it has hit me yet. i am going to [hopefully] be working as a nurse soon. i mean, come on, that just sounds so legit [and grown up], i am not old enough to be a nurse [at least i don't feel like i am]. i am going to have a degree in a month. my life is going to consist of working and anything else i want. freedom. weird...i don't even know what that feels like. and i have a feeling it is going to take a while to get used to that concept. a lot of people have told me that i am going to be extremely bored and go crazy...which is probably true. but before i go crazy, i am going to sleep. i am going to sleep like my life depended on it. and i am going to enjoy every last minute of it. it is going to be fantastic. and then i am going to pay back all of the trades that i owe people for the last 2 years [station 9, you guys have been great, couldn't have done it without you!].
as weird as it sounds, i am already starting to go through a withdrawal. and i know the week of may 7th is just going to be a water work show [i apologize in advance everybody]. because, you see, this thing called change...i usually don't handle it very well. i am a creature of habit. i make plans weeks in advance, i stick to a routine, i get comfortable, and i enjoy it. i know God is trying to teach me a lot about getting out of a routine. he does not want us to live a life of routines. he wants our life to be full of life and excitement! and this is a concept that i am definitely going to need to learn. pray for me over this next month guys, please. a lot of changes are headed my way, and i need prayer for peace and wisdom during this time. also, please be praying for strength for me over the next couple of weeks, because it is getting down to the wire and life is ridiculous. i am trying to learn to reach out and ask for help when i need it, so this is me, reaching out.
bring it change, i am ready to face you [at least i hope so].