time for a change.

i complain. this is something that i am not proud of. not one bit. and something, that i have honestly been trying to fix, for a long time. whether it is exhaustion from being up all night at work...having to write a 50-page case study for school...i have a tendency to complain each step of the way. why you ask? i have no idea. especially since i hate complaining from other people. it is immature, selfish, and simply annoying. and yet, i DO IT! i have chosen my life path...my major, my job...the only person that i can blame for my incredible lack of sleep is myself, so i don't need to be whining about my exhaustion to others.

call me a dork, but i have a 3x5 card taped on my closet door with the words...
"what do you want to be?
a firefighter.
so start living like it."

one thing that i have come to admire from my time working in EMS and building relationships with my colleagues are their incredible attitudes and awesome work ethic, which is something that i long to develop. when i talk to rescue 57s at the hospital, not once have they ever complained with how BUSY they are. but rather they ask how your day has been. they chose that busy station, so they suck it up, do work, and keep a good attitude about it. they persevere through the pain. i long to develop this ability. so if you read, and i complain to you later, you have permission to slap me. tell me that i will be stronger because of it :]

now for a little flashback!
you can laugh, because i do. this was me on move-in day at biola university in 2005. the start of my undergrad career! crazy to think how quickly this adventure is quickly coming to a close 6 years later...