adulthood.

so this last week i definitely feel that i have been transitioning to grown-up life. and can i just say, i am exhausted.

i had my first day on the floor at work on monday, but my first official day on the floor wasn't until yesterday. can i just say, not being a student nurse anymore is weird. sometimes i definitely feel that i should not have as much responsibility that i am given. yes, i have that rn behind my name, but i definitely don't feel any smarter or wiser than i did a couple months ago when i was still a student.

overall though, i feel the transition to my new role as a nurse has been going well. i won't lie, it is stressful. i think i might have developed an ulcer in the last couple of days. but any new job is stressful, right? i know i am definitely spoiled because i am in a familiar place with many familiar faces. i can't imagine being in a brand new hospital where i didn't know a soul. i know that i definitely made the right decision about where to start my nursing career [thank you for pestering me about applying detoy!].

i have also realized in the last couple of days that maybe nursing isn't going to be as bad as i thought. not saying that i thought nursing was a bad career, but i thought i was going to be miserable being cooped up inside of a building all day. yes, it is a transition always being inside, but, i have also found that there is a huge joy in serving people. i realize that i could be feeling this way simply because i am a new nurse, but i am going to enjoy this feeling while i can. having the opportunity to be that kind, reassuring voice to people when they are terrified and in pain is truly an honor and privilege. people really do look up to nurses. i guess i never truly realized how much until now.

i know that i still have loads to learn about my new position. i know that i am going to keep learning everyday for the rest of my career. i know that my future career is going to hold a lot of twists and turns. but for now, i am excited. i am excited to be have the opportunity to work as a nurse, and i look forward to the opportunity to impact people's lives.

that i may be a good steward.