10 things.

10. i was reminded today how much i really don't like interviews.
9. the show make it or break it is my guilty pleasure [don't judge me].
8. i have a strong addiction to spearmint gum. i can go through a pack a day at work.
7. my skin is peeling like crazy right now [it looks like i have a really bad skin condition]
6. i love the smell of fresh laundry.
5. i wish i was a better cook, or more creative with my cooking. either way, i need to add more variety to my diet.
4. i have never been to a real concert [sad, i know]. i want to change that this summer.
3. i have a new love for country music [there it is, i said it].
2. i am trying to cut back on napping. trying is the key word here.
1. i think i have an etsy store idea [but that is for another post].



[just because. my dad is my favorite. pinning ceremony. azusa, ca]

hump day.

peace.
there is a part of me, a part deep down inside of me, that longs to be at peace. i don't know what it is, i don't know why there is a continuous battle going on deep inside of me, a struggle that i cannot seem to find source of. this battle, i thought it would end when the craziness of these last two years ended, but it hasn't. the pit of my stomach [you know, the part of your stomach that rumbles before a job interview, a first date, or a huge roller coster] is constantly tight. maybe it is because there are so many unknowns. maybe it is because change in on the horizon, and that petrifies me. maybe it is because i am scared i am going to make the wrong decision concerning my future. maybe it is because i am so scared of failure.
i hate this unrest in the pit of my stomach. i long for peace. i long for that feeling of comfort. i long for the feeling in the pit of my stomach to simply disappear. i know God has big plans for me, i simply wish i knew how to better trust him, so that i can be overwhelmed with the peace that i know he has for me.


[baby avery at stephanie's graduation. i love being an aunt]

welcome to the club.

it has been a whirlwind of a weekend. on friday, my sister stephanie graduated from high school! i am so proud of her! stephanie is just an amazing person with such a bright personality. i know she is going to do big things with her life. congratulations stephanie, i am so very proud of you.











then on saturday, detoy and i had our tough mudder!!! i will say this much about it, it was one of the hardest things i have ever done in my life. but it was amazing, and i absolutely loved it. it was up at snow valley [aka big bear], and consisted of 10+ miles of going up and down the mountain, 28 obstacles, and quite a few cuts and bruises, and a really bad sunburn [and honestly, i am still recovering from it]. but it was such a good challenge, and i was so glad that i got to do it with my partner. if a tough mudder isn't true partner bonding, than i am not sure what is! i would not have been able to finish it with detoy [he helped get me over quite a few obstacles], and i am just so thankful i got to experience this with him!













and then on sunday, i got to go to my friend whitney's wedding! whitney and i have known each other since we were toddlers [we are talking 4 years old people], so it was so great to get to share this special day with her. i can remember us as kids talking about our weddings, and our future husbands...so it was so surreal to get to be there for the big day. congratulations lee and whitney! wishing you both all the happiness in the world!











and on a side note, detoy is going to MO to do relief work from the tornadoes...please keep him in your prayers. have a good week everyone!

graduation.

i made it to my 100th post. kind of crazy that i have had that much to write about over the last year. anyway, getting back on topic... i guess i have been putting off writing a post about graduation, because in my head, i have this post "built up." i think of my post concerning college graduation as one that will hold a lot of wisdom, a lot of memories, a lot of emotion, and a lot of truth. and honestly, the last two weeks, i don't know what i have been feeling [so that makes it especially hard to put my thoughts and feelings into words].
graduation, was, bittersweet. i expected to be filled with a lot more tears than i was [actually, i got the majority of my tears out at convocation friday morning]. the whole weekend was just a whirlwind, and a part of me is still in shock that it actually happened. six years. six years, and one trip across the stage, and that was it. it was over. my nursing cohort will probably all never be together again, which is just so weird. you spend two years [two of the hardest years of your life might i add] with these people, and one walk across the stage, and its over. one walk across the stage, and we were all thrown into this thing called life. we were all thrown into this thing that speeds by like a freight train, and there is no way to slow it down. we were all thrown into thing called life where the days, the weeks, and the months begin to blur together; and there is no longer separation of time by semesters, papers, and classes. we were all handed back our life that night, and given the freedom to do what we want, and that is scary. we no longer have school to rely on as an excuse for why something isn't done, we are now completely responsible for ourselves and how our life turns out. graduation day. it was one of the greatest days of my life, and also one of the scariest. it was really the first day when i had to officially enter the real world, and i responded by saying "it's been a long time coming, and it turns out, i am really scared to meet you..."

[a few moments from graduation weekend...]




























































i still can't believe i'm done. God has been faithful, and i know he will continue to be as i enter this new chapter of my life. i am excited to see where He takes me next. thank you to all my dear friends and family who helped get me to this point, i couldn't have done it without you. love you all more than you will ever know.

you were here.

i was pinned today. and i graduate from college tomorrow. God is good.

...that i may be a good steward...

[now a little preview]




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