hump day.

growing up.
these last couple of months, or even, the last couple of years, i feel that there has been a lot of growing up. the fact that i am an official nurse now is exciting, but it is scary. what do you do for a living? i am a nurse. that just sounds so grown up. even though my 24th birthday quickly approaches, sometimes i still feel like the geeky eleven year old who was so scared of rejection and what people thought of her. it is so crazy to be pushing 24 and still trying to figure out who you are, and who God created you to be. the fact is, i am still learning. every day. sometimes i feel like it is a constant battle. sometimes it feels like all i have to do is take that leap of faith, but the eleven year old inside of me is still afraid.
it makes me laugh, the fact that when i went off to college i thought i had my life together. i thought i was all grown up. but turns out, i didn't know a thing about life. and sometimes i feel like i still don't. life is a constant journey. a journey of ups, downs, and change. a journey of growing up, every day, even when you are already an adult. a journey of heartache, fears, regrets, mistakes, joys, and triumphs. life is about learning to live with your mistakes, and learning from them. life is about brushing off the cruel words the world throws at you. life is about finding out who you are, who God created you to be, and never losing sight of that.


[yosemite. summer 2010]